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Thursday, October 20, 2005

all u lucky peeps(who?).

i have finally decided to disclose my new blog.

www.livejournal.com/users/upnrising

carrie flew away at 6:18 PM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

trot trot trot!

carrie flew away at 9:02 PM

horse riding!

carrie flew away at 8:54 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

the day started nicely.

i woke up on time. pop my daily dosage of ginko biloba. enough time to refill the kitchen water. made my milo with the right concoction. this time round, the ginseng powder taste tasteless! which is what i hope for every morn. and i have jael to walk to school with.

and then it went downhill. got my assignment back. cant say i love those numbers written by my lecturer. i expected better. but i guess i should feel blessed. be contented i consoled myself.

up till this stage, i'm still wondering. why? but i'm pretty good at ignorin my feelings nowadays. well. nobody asked. so, why bother? i told myself.

but for this moment, i shall indulge in myself for awhile.

written expression. written expression. am i not expressive enough? i must be blind. and what's with the superficialty. the dissing. the talks behind doors. the judgement. the selective shit. the mind-readings. or silence-reading?

it's easy to lend a pair of listening ears. or a pair of attentive eyes for frens back home(MSN).

it's always good to fixate my attention on others'. at least i know it's worthwile.

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a while ago, i went to visit a friend's blog. a rather distant one i must say.

and i thought, wht i am vexin over, is nothing compared to hers'. i must admit my heart goes out to her. but wad good will it be? it wun alleviate her from the sorrow she's in.

perversly, i felt better. at least i still have my horse-riding trip. my pending thereupatic harbortown spree. surfin lessons and dreamworld and others.

yes. i'm wicked. but tt's how we people are. it wld always be better to have someone trampling in the same shit with u. or, the deeper the better. like. "u r lucky u get to study. some ppl dun even hve the chance." or . "u r lucky tt u have a shelter, some people dun even have the money to rent a hut."

yes. i do count my blessings. i do. i'm learning to. but THose examples dun make my problems any more insignificant or non-exisitng.at least. in my life.

yes. awkward expression. help, i shall consult.

carrie flew away at 10:38 PM

Monday, September 19, 2005

i dun wan to talk about myself anymore

i dunwan to think abt my own personal issues

i want to rise up.

carrie flew away at 10:35 PM

"My, My, My"

The light from the window is fading

You turn on the night

The sound from the avenue's calling you

Open your eyes

And when you find

You're spending your time

Wanting for words

But never speak

You tell yourself

That the things you need come slow

But inside you just don't know

My, my, my

Let your bright light shine

Let your words live on

Far beyond this life

Beyond this life

Hold on to anything

Everything's over and done

Has the fear taken over you

Tell me

Is that what you want

To make up your life

Time after time

You're falling behind

Hold on to me

Never leave

Forever be what you mean to me right now

Don't you feel better now

carrie flew away at 9:44 PM

Friday, September 09, 2005

Dedicated to the potato lovers(chuckles, chuckles)

remember the Thump-thump -?

do u remember goin on dates with the both of u Knowing tt it is THE date?

waiting for THE one to get ready

knowing that THE one is preparing to go out with YOU.

trying to impress THE one

feeling estatic when THE one smiles at some random thing you said?
funny or not.

knowing tt THE date ends well, promising more to come?

skipping lessons just to be with THE one?

acting that you just HAppened to BUMP into THE one. .like all the time?

mMmmmm.... the bliss of silly albeit lovely datings